i miss the times we had. the watchnight times.
why did everything have to change? why is everybody so busy?? )):
can WE just stay over at my house again please? it was like so fun la.
the spasms. i miss all of you girls.
we'll spend time with each other soon okay?
i love you girls.

dee, claire and claud! GIRL CONFERENCE! :D

47 things most girls dont know:

1. Two phrases guys open with to stop them from stammering on the phone. 'Hey, are you busy?' or 'Are you doing something?'

2. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

3. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

4. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

5. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

6. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

7. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

8. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

9. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

10. Guys get jealous easily.

11. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

12. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

13. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

14. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week, but it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking their parents for money anyway.

15. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

16. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

17.If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

18. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

19. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.

20. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

21. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

22. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

23. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

24. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

25. Try to be as straightforward as possible.

26. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

27. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

28. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

29.When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.'

30. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

31. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.

32. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

33. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

34. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

35. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

36. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

37. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

38. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

39. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

40. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

41. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

42. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.

43. Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesnt mean he represents ALL of us.

44. We don't like girls who are too skinny.

45. Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unoticable tell them about yours...

46. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...

47. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.

to know that you guys care for me bring tears to me eyes.
i really really thank you. that means so much to me to know.
i love you guys. i really do.
i'm sorry for everything. really.

give me more time please. just a little more time.

i'm happy. i think. i know. i hope.
oh wells. school is still the same. but... rahhhh. things are gonna be different now. )): oh wells. at least i know now ive got one more person who's there for me! :D

went shopping at far east today with dee, claire, jiekai and harold to go buy claire's pressie. we walked around so much and went back to the first shop to buy her a bag la! hahahahha!! yay! ive bought michelle's bday pressie and alison's bday pressie too. michelle's vday too. now i'm left with julia's vday and alison's vday. :D

today was fun in a whole la. tmr will be better i hope. :D

Words are harmful things.
Watch what you say, you may be joking and you did not mean it.
But people around you may be hurt by what you say.
(just like how i got hurt)

I'm not what you think i am anymore okay.
There's nothing i can say to make you believe so, I GIVE UP.
Now stop it. Stop contemplating. It's over. Game over. You've won.

Words are the worse thing that people can use to hurt each other.
You should be using words to build each other up. NOT HURT EACH OTHER.
I know i should not bother about what you say, but i cant.
YOU ARE MY FRIEND. Well, i accept you as my friend, however you may think differently.
You've hurt me badly.

I really tried really hard to fit in, but you are not giving me a chance.
Why?
Have i done something to you? Tell me. I'll change.
If you look at me now and last year, i'm sure you can see i'm different.
So why cant you just like me be your friend? To be in your clique?
Your friends have already accepted me, why not you?

I'm not going to try anymore to fit in.
[why do you try so hard to fit in when you are born to stand out?]
I'm not going try anymore.
I'm happier this way.
Now stop talking behind my back, if you've got something to say..
SAY IT STRAIGHT TO MY FACE.

This is the way you left me,
I’m not pretending,
No hope, no love, no glory,
No happy ending.

This is the way that we love,
Like its forever,
Then live the rest of our life,
Both not together

Wake up in the morning,
Stumble on my life,
Can’t get no love without sacrifice,
If anything should happen,
I guess I wish you well,
Mmm a little bit of heaven,
But a little bit of hell

This is the hardest story,
that I have ever told,
No hope, or love, or glory,
Happy endings gone forever more

I feel as if I’m wasting,
And I wasted every day

2 O'clock in the morning,
Someone’s on my mind,
Can’t get no rest,
Keep walking around,
If I pretend that nothing ever went wrong,
I can get to my sleep I can dream now and just carry on??

BRING ON THE CONFIDENCE

1. Throw your insecurities away
Everyone feels insecure at some point, and though these feelings are perfectly normal, it becomes unhealthy when you let it take control of your life. You might feel that YOU ARE NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR SOMEONE, or that YOU DONT DESERVE TO BE WITH THEM, but who are you to decide what someone else likes? If you insecure over the way you look or about certain aspects of your life, STOP FOCUSING ON THOSE AREAS and LOOK AT YOUR TALENTS INSTEAD (example: electric guitar). You will never know that something about you attracts the girl of your dreams.

2. Be yourself
Be yourself, BE CONFIDENT THAT YOUR PERSONALITY CAN WIN THE HEART OF THE ONE YOU LIKE. Do not try to impress your crush by pretending to have the same interest, or change yourself to suit what you think the person you want to ask out really wants in someone.


POPPING THE QUESTION

1. Pick an appropriate time
Do not ask him/her out one or two days before Valentine's day cause that's way too last minute. You need to give them ample time to consider and accept.

2. Pick an appropriate method
You have to pick the method you think best demonstrates your sincerity in asking the person you like out for Valentine's day. Some say asking for a date in person is the most sincere. That might be true for some, but that won't work for someone who gets tongue-tied when nervous ( like you! :P ). Instead, ask your date out via a method you're most comfortable with. WHAT MATTERS MOST IS YOUR SINCERITY!

3. Pick the right lines
No cheesy pick up lines ( like the ones i use! ). Plan what you want to say and say it in your own words, instead of copying it off someone or something. You can try different ways of asking, such as writing a poem or PUTTING IT IN A SONG!





wow. i see lots of couples everywhere. mrt, shopping malls, school, church. everywhere.
wow. i dont know how to feel. i just miss being attached? i know that's wrong, but i dont know why but i cant help it.
help me please? vday is coming, i need to stay strong. i know i can go thru this alone. i dont need you, or you, or even you! to let me know that im special and that im loved.
(however, i cant help it. i want you to ask me out this valentine's day)

this is horrible. ahhhhhh! anyway, went to study today. was alrights la. just TALKED like super alot. kinda very easily distracted. anyway, i love michelle tan zi ru. she's niceeeeeee! heh.

friends friends friends. what do they even mean?
love love love. what does it really mean?

let this valentine's day be a special day for me please.

these are some real late watchnight photos:



wheeeee!! it's 1:50am and i'm at ELO's house. we are staying over to spend time with her and to send her off at the airport tmr. this post is dedicated to ELOISE LEE HUI YI! :D

i love her so much and i'm so gonna miss her when she leaves la. but friends in church are friends for life and i know that we will forever be friends! :D
she's the girl who has brought so much joy and laughter to my life! :D she's a sunshine!! totally awesome! :D take care ELO i love love love love love love you! :D

i shall upload all the pics that we took today soon okay? love you all that reads my blog!