so he finally got the courage to dump me.
well, technically he cant dump me cause we were not tgt.
but he ended everything tonight.
no more CJH. just no more.
so much for loving you forever.
well, ive cried the whole night already. i am going to stop.
tomorrow will be a better day.

goodnight all. will be blogging so much more now because im free from assignments.
will be going to unibar for party tmr night! woots! cowboy theme.
then party all night long on saturday night for the celebration of my 21st!
and then SUPPOSEDLY pick up CJH. but guess he is not coming. :/

okay, bye for now. :D

I haven't been blogging. Because I've been so busy with school ): the production has been great so far. It's coming to an end soon. 2 more performances ): I'm feeling sad about it ): the picture before is my character in the performance (;

(delayed post, i didnt know this was not published)

Going to be very very very exhausted by the end of this week. (: but it's all worth it!
Shut up you're boring and ordinary is slowly slowly become awesome! I'm excited for the end product! (:

Today is yet another long day. 111am to 10pm.
My 2 favorite people must still be sleeping huh, @jiahaochong and @technokittyz

I feel like a fool! ): I didn't check my timetable and I rushed to school! It's 1130 now and rehearsal is only at 1230 ): stupid fool ):

These pictures are photos that are closely related to how I want my party to look like.

So, Ive been thinking alot about my birthday as it is drawing really really close.
I've had many thoughts about it. Thought about celebrating it with just close friends and family, then thought about throwing a big party. But, nah... I dont feel like celebrating anymore. Why should I throw myself a party and expect people to celebrate me turning 21. Who cares about me turning 21 anyway? 


Sigh. Why am I so depressed and emo about this stupid shit. Well, let me tell you what I actually wanted to do.


So, Ive been thinking about throwing myself a party and planning it since a year ago. This was how I wanted it to be. I wanted the theme to be "ANYTHING PINK". So, then everyone had to be dressed in something pink. It didnt have to be anything big but as long as you have something pink on you, you are allowed to come to the party!


There would be almost a million pink and purple balloons which filled the ballroom (Raffles Town Country Club, maybe).  i want to upload pictures but this stupid blogger sucks. anyway, then there would be like pink paper plates and everything pink. cupcakes with princess aurora face on them and things like that! have a birthday cake that is pink and happy and all. then have a chocolate fondue that is overflowing with lots and lots of chocolate so that people can just dip strawberries, bananas, apples and marshmallows in. 


have a live band playing at the side and have a dj man playing nice songs too.


have a section just for photo taking, nice banners saying "happy 21st princess nat" on the wall and nicely decorated walls so that i can take Polaroid photos and normal pictures. 


then have fun activities like "how much do you know nat" kind of games and things like that! 


My birthday would have been so fun. But too bad, I cant celebrate it. ):

I can't wait for you to come up (:
Xx


Omg, look at the weather! Arent you people in Singapore jealous? Haha ((:

Okay, since the Lynn Phua post disappeared.. I am going to write a new one!
I wanted my first revamp post to be dedicated to her! Because she was the awesome one that helped me do up this wonderful beautiful blog!

Lynn Phua is really awesome. Crazy technokittyz all! Haha. She has been an amazing friend to me, listen to me rant and talk nonsense with me as well! Haha (: love you babe! Thanks for everything. I want to dress up and go for your 21st party! We shall Skype on your birthday okay?

Xoxo

I miss this boy

Ranting away ):
My life is gonna be so busy. I wanna cry so badly!
Tmr I've got freaking school at like 7am and like after that front of house for my friend's play. And then after that I've got meeting the following day in the morning all the way till 3 and then class from 3-6 and then on Friday I've got rehearsals the whole freaking day. Sat and Sunday too! 8am to freaking 10pm. What a nice life ):

Sad horrible Uni life ): can't wait for all these to be over!

Omg, the I love Lynn Phua post disappeared ):


In class now (: a doll's house. Sounds interesting. That's the play we are suppose to read this week.

I'm having stupid bad cramps which totally sucks. Don't feel like doing anything besides sleeping.

Weather here is like 17 degrees but feels colder than that! I'm cold!

Xoxo, natty